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Had a dream that my mom came back when i took a nap… then i woke up and started crying and i grabbed the stuffed.dog she let me sleep with all the time when i came over… it still smelled like her house and i hugged it and started crying even harder :’( this is going to be alot harder than i thought :(
For your enjoyment heres my ash ketchum impression #pikachu #pokemon #anime #otaku #ashketchum #nintendo
She hung up and I layed down on my bed with nothing but Haru-Chan on my mind. I couldnt help but think about how beautiful she was I wish she was crawled up in bed with me in my arms just like the night she slept over on my couch with me. I kept thinking “one more day till i see her again” i was so anxious for it to be monday so i could see her pretty face again. I was still nervous that the other host club members would find out about Haruhi and I’s relationship before me and her told them but if it does… then it does i guess. The day will come when Haruhi and I make our relationship official i just hope it is soon.
I woke up the next morning and i hear my phone buzzing in. I sleeplily look at my phone and see that Haruhi was texting me the messeges said ” HEY wake up silly i wanna talk!” ” rise and shine babe i know your sleeping ^_^ just text me when you wake up ok?” I couldnt help but giggle and smile reading these text messeges she’s just the cutest girl i have ever met. When I was more awake I started texting her back to let her know i was awake.
L: hey beautiful! :) thanks for waking me up i appericiate it
H: senpai you sleep too much! how are you going to pass your classes if you are sleeping all day…. and plus i kinda wanna talk to you :)
L: Oh Haruhi stop lol there you go lecturing me about school… what would i do without you dear?
H: i just want my potential GF to succeed in school and graduate and be successful with her life :P but anyway i have a question.
H: Soooo i was wondering if you wanted to study with me today before we have to go to school?
L:OMG YES! your place or mine again?
H: well i have never met someone so excited to study lol :P im sure studying isnt all what you have in mind :P but ill just come over to your place again… dads gotta work and ill be alone so i figured id come see you but i cant spend the night… school night
L: Hun did you forget i go to the same school? haha but yur dad probably doesnt let you spend the night on school nights.
H: Yep pretty much, as much as id love to sleep next to you again i cannot ;) btw dont worry about making food im bringing some
L: oooo yay i get food lol
H:lacey you are such a dork :P
L: thats why you like me XD
H: lol yes and a few other things too :P
L:well baby ill see you in a bit bye bye
H: bye ^_^
I quickly got out of bed and got dressed and ready for the day. I figured that i would surprise Haruhi by getting her something she likes… then it hit me…. FANCY TUNA! she loves that! Even though Haruhi told me not to make food just a little sushi wont hurt. So i was walking by the shops looking for a sushi place and i accedently bump into someone and we both fall. She was a tall red headed woman she was really pretty too, she gets up and says “are you ok young lady?” I give her a smile and say “yes mamn im ok! im sorry i wasnt paying attention! Are YOU ok?” She laughed and put her hand on my shoulder and said ” haha its ok dear im fine! Now you look like your lost, do you need help with something?” She looked like she knew alot about this place so i felt i should ask her where the sushi place was ” Do you know where i can get some fancy tuna?”
She looked at me with a shocked look and smiled at me. Then she said ” Yes dear its right around the corner… thats expensive stuff, is it for someone special?” I blush a little and say to her “Ummm yes mamn… very VERY special” She chuckled a bit and put her hand on my shoulder again and whispered in my ear ” You know what else would make your special person smile?” She pointed to a flower shop with a boquet full of red roses “Those right over there” I was very confused because how would she know i liked women? Usually roses where for women, but i played along with it and thanked the woman i started running to the sushi place when she yelled “HEY! i forgot to ask you for your name… what is it?” She was very polite to me and i said ” my name is Lacey! What is yours? So i can properly Thank you!” She smiled and said ” No need to know my name i know you are thank ful good bye now “
I hurried up got the roses and the fancy tuna and ran back home. I got the dishes done, table ready, put the tuna in the fridge and anxiously waited for Haruhi to arrive. I couldn’t wait to see her beautiful face again, and kiss her soft velvet like lips. About 20 mintues later… Haruhi still wasn’t there, getting worried i picked up my phone and called her it rang a couple times then she picked up “Senpai? is that you” she said with a sad tone “Yes” i said with concern ” Whats wrong hun? I was getting worried, are you ok?” I heard a deep long sigh on my speaker and my heart started racing and i was thinking she didnt wanna see me any more… then she spoke up and said ” Well Senpai… I have to tell you something” My heart dropped and i started tearing up but i had to hide that i was crying “Wait… are you crying Lacey?” I was a bit embarrassed and i sniffled ” No! Why would you say that?”
Hearing another sigh but this time a short one i could tell Haruhi was a little upset “Lacey Rose Ackels dont you lie to me!! Are you crying right now!!? Tell me the truth!” I had to tell her the truth and i said “yes i am… if you are going to end things with me i completley understand im sorry i wasnt better for you” Haruhi paused for a little while and said “L-Lacey… you thought i was gonna end things with you?” Confused as hell at this point i said “yes… i do” I could hear her snicker a bit… then full laughter “OH SENPAI YOU ARE JUST!!” she continued laughing while i had a deer in the head lights look then after she calmed down she explained “You assume things so quickly! Im not breaking things off you silly goon! Tamaki called me and i had to do something with the host club! Why would you think id end things with you!… Although… i did sound kinda scketchy didnt i? im sorry senpai will you forgive me?
I was dumbfounded and said “yes dear! im the one that should be sorry! i was quick to judge… see thats how much i like you… i dont ever wanna lose you either as a girlfriend or friend!” “senpai… dont ever worry about that i wont ever leave you!” Haruhi said with a cute little voice. I heard Tamaki in the background yelling for Haruhi she then said ” OH! Senpai I have to go!! i will see you at school tomorrow! i cannot wait to see you! Wiping my tears away i said ” I cant wait to see you either Haru-chan!” We hung up and i was quick to realize something… I was completley head over heels in love with Haruhi there was no doubt about it. I had to tell her but in my own special way… i couldnt wait to tell her in school tommorow
The next day I knew today was going to be the day i told Haruhi that i was in love with her and if she would be my girl. I arrived at school and i knew exactly where Haruhi was… in the same classroom where she always studies i put the boquet of roses in my jacket and the fancy tuna as a boxed lunch for Haruhi. I stepped in the classroom and there she was with her nose in her book. I jokingly say ” Ecxuse me but im looking for a beautiful girl named Haruhi have you seen her?” She playfully put her book down and smiled at me and i smiled back and said “Oh! there you are i couldnt recognize you with a book next to your face!” She playfully punched my arm and said “Oh stop that Senpai! I didnt have time to study last night! do you want to join me? i laughed a little and sat down with her.
We studied a little and i wanted to give her my surprises so i asked “Hey um i bought these for you yesterday and didnt get a chance to give these to you so here ” i gave her the red roses and she got a big glowing smile on her face and kissed me on the cheek “THANK YOU SO MUCH!! Red roses are my FAVORITE! How did you know?” I shrugged and said “You’re welcome babe! I didn actually this lady with red hair i ran into told me to get them to make you smile. Haruhi got a blank look on her face then laughed… i was confused and then she asked ” Was she kinda tall? and did she seem a little too friendly” thinking about it i said “y-yes… kinda… why?” she started laughing harder “OH THAT GOON! that wasnt just a lady babe… that was my father!” I felt dumb… how could i not see that before!
She sat the roses down and said ” ill put these in my locker later again thank you so much they are lovley” i gave her a little smirk like there was more to come and she asked ” What? Why are you looking at me like that?” I chuckled and said ” What are you having for lunch today?” She pondered a bit and said “Well… i guess whatever they are serving i didnt pack anything today” i gave her a boxed lunch and tell her to open it… She opened the lunch box and she jumped out of her seat and yelled “FANCY TUNA!!! OH MY GOD!!” She jumped in my lap and gave me a huge hug then started blushing and said ” Senpai… do you mind if i eat this now? i havent had breakfast yet” I nodded my head yes and she happily started eating.
As she was eating i was getting anxious for something to happen… as she ate the last peice of tuna she saw there was a note underneath it. She asked me “What is this Senpai?” i said with a big smile on my face ” Open it Haruhi… just read it” She looked at me with confusion and Slowly opened the note i told her “read it out loud ” She read the note first to her self and looked at me and started tearing up… then hugged me tightly i hugged her back and i asked “well? what did it say” she brushed her hand across my jaw line and said “It said” ” I love you Haruhi Fujioka, will you be my girlfirend?” I lean my face into hers and start running my fingers through her hair and say “Well? Is this your way of saying yes? She started shedding tears and said “I love you too Lacey” she kissed me ever so softly and i felt as if sparks were flying i could feel that she loved me ever so much she intesifyed her kiss slightly and put her arms around my neck and jumped in my arms…then we suddenly hear a door slam open… i put Haruhi down and hold her in my arms and yelll “whos there show your face” a few seconds later… tamaki comes around the door and looks at me with anger and says… “what the hell is going on here”.
continued in the next chapter
GAHHH LITTLE SASHA IS SO CUTE!!
“Why should I care about appearances and labels anyway? It’s what’s on the inside that counts.” - Haruhi Fujioka
^_^ shes the cutest thing ever!!! ^D^
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hey guys whats up!!! so this isn’t going to be any fan fic its gonna be about whats going on in my life right now so get prepared and im sorry if I write a whole book about this writing makes me feel better and its been helping me a lot with my problems and maybe someone else with similar problems will read this and know they aren’t alone :) so here it goes
after my mother passed away I was in a state of mind where I thought I couldn’t grieve because I had to stay strong for everyone else I was gone from home for almost two months trying to do my mothers paper work and get all her stuff out of her apartment…. then right after Christmas I came to the realization that my mother was never going to call again, that I wasn’t going to see her ever again, and that I wouldn’t hear her voice ever again. and it hit me harder than a rock and I went into a deep dark depression. there would be days where I wouldn’t get out of bed, shower, brush my hair, or eat, or when I ate I ate too much. I was pushing people that truly loved me away and I was pissing people off because I wouldn’t hang out with them….one of my friends said ” when the old lacey comes back you give me a call bc im done helping this person you have become” finally I had to put my foot down and write to everyone saying I needed space and they finally gave it to me… just going out to my living room and talking to my grandfather frightened me, or even speaking on the phone to someone
the only thing keeping me happy at that point in time was posting videos on my vine account or posting funny status’ on facebook because I wanted people to know the “real” lacey was still here and my vine followers always made me smile because they are younger than me and they look up to me they are almost like family to me! so keeping them happy and smiling was always a must for me they made me feel loved when no one was around when I needed someone and they have helped me thru a lot I love my little fans so much ^_^
2 months pass by and im still sulking and depressed in my room and then a couple people including my older brother called me telling me they miss me…my older brother then showed me a picture of him when he was in the same kind of depression that I was in and it really woke me up but I was still scared of seeing people but I started taking care of myself a bit better showering, brushing my hair, getting dressed for no apparent reason so on and so forth. but then I started to realize that.. I actually needed people around me… its amazing how much depression can kill you on the inside and rip you apart… I realized if I kept sulking in my room and not seeing people it was just going to get worse. I also realized that my mother and grandmother wouldn’t want me to act like I have been acting I knew something had to happen
my friends were planning a get together and I was terrified to go. if I had an anxiety attack I didn’t want the girls to deal with that because some of my anxiety and panic attacks were terrifying to someone who doesn’t know what to do. but I knew it would be good for me…. my stepmother called me too and asked if I wanted to hang out with her and my two step siblings and I said yes… my dad has been stressing me out as well along with my depression and making it worse so she thought it would be good
the day came when I was gonna go out with my stepmom… I was nervous and excited at the same time she came and picked me up and we whent out to eat and went to the movies… I actually loved being out of the house… seeing the sunshine and the clouds it was amazing…while we were going to pick up my step-sister a song on the radio came on… and it fit my situation perfectly, it was “gotta get up and try” by pink and the words were perfect for the situation I was in… me and carol both realized this and smiled at each other it was like god was telling me something and I could feel my mothers presence with me almost saying “see it wasn’t that bad was it?” then after that day I hung out with my friends I had a small anxiety attack but only because it was hot in my friends house and it was making me uncomfortable…but after stepping outside and taking afew deep breaths and praying that god would calm me down I was fine…my friends knew why I stepped outside and they helped too and I realized there how much they really did care about me
im not at 100% yet but I know I am getting so much better I just gotta not get into those depression swings again and tell myself that ppl do care about me. that my mother and grandma wouldn’t want that kind of life for me and that I DONT NOT want that life for myself. I hope if someone is going thru depression that you know you are not alone and that you can fight it! it might not seem like it but you can„, and know that someone out there loves you no matter what you think :)
Films seen in 2014. #22. Grave of the Fireflies (1988). 9/10
OMG guys I just watched this…. it was such a good movie but… it was sooo sad and depressing I cried so hard at this movie It was probably one of the saddest movies I have ever seen :( once things got better BAM it got worse but other than that it was a great movie! if you ever stumble upon this grab the tissues you might need the whole box
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